i don't remember writing this (or ever being this positive), but here's an entry from my old diary

Dear Diary, 

We made it! Can you believe how far we’ve come since those awkward middle school days? I can picture it now, me dressed as Lady Gaga on Halloween 2k12 or was it 11’? These memories sometimes blur together for me unlike you, but I honestly find it astonishing how much we have changed. Little me would be so proud of how far I’ve come, I know you’ve seen all the good and bad days (sometimes I forget on purpose or just because of the cruel side effects of having a mind that is always running). Some of the memories that I have been thinking about recently are the time we used to go to the lake with that rebel grrrl from down the street, the time I watched Hannah Montana for the first time and instantly knew I wanted to be remembered for something (a star if you will), and mainly the weeks of last summer when I mopped around the house depressed because I wasn’t happy in my own life. Today, I can honestly say that we are in a good place. Ever since I listened to the great advice of a new friend to just do what’s best for me for once, I have been feeling so much better. I still have my down days, but it is important for us to remember how confused and sad we used to be, but we prevailed and are better on the other side. The grass really is greener and I’m so glad that I can finally think clearly for the first time in years. Summer is on its way and this is not the year where we will waste away our salad days listening to The Cure and staying cooped up inside our air conditioned suburban home. We will go on adventures, create art, sing, laugh, and let the wind through our hair and the sun on our skin. It’s almost the end of our junior year and it is also amazing how much we have changed since freshman year, we have made friends and lost friends. We have tried many hair colors, gone through many fashion phases, and several backpacks. We’ve said it since day one, 2016 is the year of ME (well us), and it is about time that we treat this beautiful body with some respect. Always remember to see the silver lining, and I’ll see you again when I have some more existential thoughts. 

Your friend, Kaitlyn