am i even body posi or just a hypocrite to myself (i don't love my body even tho i encourage self-acceptance) maybe im a coward or just mentally unstable

I may hate my body everyday and wish I was thinner, but I’m still gonna (try) to wear what I want regardless of my size. There are definitely outfits I might save till I’m thinner one magical day, but I’m only alive right now so I guess I’ll try to be hawt and crippling with mental illness and fat

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